Looking back, I can just laugh at the absurdity of my actions before. I didn't believe in hokum like wishing at 11:11 but because I was so desperate and I had nothing to cling unto, I wished. I wished you would come back. You did but not in the way that I wanted you to, which is good because it got me thinking about what we have and why it cannot work. It's fun to laugh at the stupid things we did in the past.