I'm Back

So what's up with me lately?

I'm currently juggling adjustments from slacker-high-school-junkie to not-so-much-of-a-slacker-college-junkie. Fine. I told myself that the moment I enter the tertiary level of education, I would change. I would work harder because my high school antics would not suffice the rigors of college. I did, however, become a little more productive and determined but the results are even more mediocre than when I was in high school. I mean, I'm in one of the top universities in the Philippines. Of course, it wouldn't be a walk in the park. I'm in the Ateneo. Of course some hardcore smart people would party all night and still get an A the next day. That's them, Aldrin. You're different. You handle things differently and you have different capacities. I'm already doubting my intellectual capacities.

Right here, right now, I can say that I'm in the fine line between average and below average. Reviewing for my first long test proved to be futile. Okay, I did not review that much because the weekend before that, I went out drinking with friends but I panic-studied the night before and the eenie weenie hours before the test. So I passed. I got roughly 68%. I got a D. But you know what, I could've gotten a C if I had one more correct answer. You know how that sucks? I could've gotten a score far lower than the result and still get a D.
I guess that's just how life plays with us. It gives us a tiny bit of reinforcement and makes us realize how we could've done better.

Fuck life