Here I am again, to complain about my shitty life, again. Oh man! I seriously need a shrink. Again, you triggered my insecurity without even trying to this time. Maaan.
I really just want to leave this city, get a fresh start in a different environment. Get a life. A better one. One where I know who I am, and a life where I love what I am. At this point, I am breaking down. I just envy you. You are getting the life you want, the friends you want. And me, I'm green, in a freaking bad way. Green with envy.
Well, okay. I know my life is okay. With my family, I'm well blessed. I'm given what I need before I even ask them.
I'm referring to school life. Well, okay. School life is okay too. I've got people who accept me, through the bad times and more bad times. Lols.
So what's my problem? INSECURITY. He just achieved it. The total self transformation. The total life and persona that he wants. And me? No. I haven't. I can't.
I'm in a crossroad here. I don't like both, not the road less travelled, not the road frequently traveled. Why should I reject myself when people accept me? Well, that's the mystery in Aldrin's brain with no clear evidence of being solved.
I won;t give you any advice on how to 'love yourself' because that would make me a screwed-up hypocrite.
ReplyDeleteInstead I'm telling you an age-old adage that helps despite its obviousness:
'This too, shall pass.'
:)
Hold on, A.
Thank you Meggie. Lol. Meggie, can I call you that? Well, yeah, and it did pass, luckily. It's only trigerred when I see that better person. Oh well.
ReplyDeleteSure! Call me Eggie if you like. Haha. Joke. :)
ReplyDeleteglad to hear that! Wonder who that person is..Hmm... :)