I want to be a naturalist!

When I was a kid, I used to spend all my time watching shows from Animal Planet. From the long documentaries about birds, to action-filled shows featuring wild lions, their hunting habits and the diversity of the African landscape. I miss those days. I miss idolizing the late Steve Irwin(may he rest in peace). I miss saying that I want to be a naturalist. Coz now, all I could say is I want to fulfill a not-so-fulfilling dream. I want to be something for the name, for the prestige; not because it was my childhood dream. It's too late now. I have deteriorated my original passion to make way for other priorities. I have lost interest. I have lost the needed intellect for science. Science and I broke up and I have a complicated relationship with the Liberal Arts now.